Manic Mondays

I don't like Mondays!  I really had to will myself outta bed this morning.  My body was aching all over from the double-header yesterday.  Man, I'm gettin' old....

I wasn't very productive at work today, not because I was tired, but because I was in a meeting for three hours.  How can anyone be productive in a three hour meeting?!

After the meeting, I met with my boss to go over some numbers.  Originally, I thought I had prepared a decent spreadsheet.  But that was not the case!  She was very critical of the spreadsheet and some of the numbers.  I could tell she was feeling very fustrated.  I tried explaining the numbers to her and where they came from, but all she kept focusing on was how fustrated she was.  I don't blame her because preparing that spreadsheet also caused me to be quite fustrated. 

At times, our discussion got fairly lively.  I feel that recently I've been very defensive of my department and my work.  I think others looking in is also getting a sense of that.  I don't know why that is.  I do know that my department gets treated with no respect, mainly because we are a cost centre and because it is so hard to earn the trust and respect back from other departments when the mentality all along has been that the accounting department doesn't know what they're doing.  I've been trying to change that mentality ever since I joined the company 3.5 years ago.  It's gotten a lot better, but I'm still not satisfied.  I feel deflated, fustrated and depressed.

In my day off tomorrow, I'm going to update my resume and return some calls to those head hunters who have left messages in my voicemail.   I just pray to God that I'm not doing this because I don't want to face challenges, but doing it because God wants me to be somewhere else.  You know what, I really need to pray about this first before doing anything.  It's God's will, not mine. 

Please help me Lord and give me the wisdom to know clearly what You want to do and how to proceed.  Please help me bring glory to You in the workplace, be it at my current company or wherever else You lead me to.  I trust in You Lord.  In Christ.  Amen.